Joli James

First, I want to express how absolutely wonderful it is to have been led to such a wonderful community of souls. I have been led to give a background of how I came to find Dolores and her wonderful technique that continues to grow and expand and change the world. I have always known that this was not my first lifetime. ¬†My first memory is of being somewhere where I was completely helpless, maybe as a baby in my crib or the nursery in the hospital, I really only remember the thoughts and emotions. ¬†I just remember thinking “What am I doing here again?” and I had this feeling of fear and helplessness. ¬†I held on to that memory and told very few people about it because when I did tell people they did not receive it very well. ¬† I was 4 yrs old and I was in day care when my teacher came up to me and asked if I was reading this book I had or studying the pictures. ¬†The book was a Berenstein Bears book, btw. ¬†I told her I was reading it and she asked me to read to her. ¬†I remember her being a little freaked out and calling my parents and asking them if they knew that I could read. ¬†They still to this day say that my sister taught me, she was 6 and just learning to read, so I still argue that point with them, lol. ¬†My mom always carried a newspaper or something to show people that I could read it. ¬†This was the second thing that I always kept tucked away in my brain as validation of past lives. ¬†We lived out in the country and owned Racking Horses that we took to horse shows. ¬†Oh, how I loved those horses. ¬†My dad was a fireman and when I was around 6 years old, just the age to ride one of our horses in the “lead line” in the horse shows, my dad got hurt carrying a woman out of a fire and we had to sell the horses and move into the city. ¬†He could no longer take care of the horses, hauling hay and such. ¬†That was 40 years ago. ¬† I was a very depressed child after that, I cried a lot and just did not want to be here anymore. ¬†Even though my parents were not church going people, I always had a strong relationship with “God”. ¬†I would talk to “God” at night and ask lots of questions. ¬†Sometimes I would pray to die in my sleep so that I could go home, I knew deep down that it was much better than this place. ¬† My dad had lots of books, mostly Westerns, but he had this one book, “Edgar Cayce, On Reincarnation”, that I read when I was around 12 or 13. ¬†I talked to my dad about it and he told me all about Edgar Cayce and how he would fall asleep with books under his pillow and not even have to study. ¬†What I remember most about Edgar Cayce is that he believed that there would be some sort of shift and everything would change, I was thinking he called it a polar shift, which made me think of warm places being cold and cold places being warm, or maybe he described it that way, I don’t have the book now, so I am not sure. ¬†He also said that one day everyone would be able to do what he did. Because I could read, my parents were able to get me enrolled in first grade at the age of 5 and I finished high school a month after I turned 17. ¬†I went to college for 6 years and obtained 3 degrees. ¬†I wanted to be a Psychiatrist, but that is not what I was meant to do. ¬†When I started taking classes in Psychology I was bored stiff, so I majored in Criminal Justice and Sociology, too. ¬† I worked in the social services field mostly after that, as a counselor, investigating child abuse, and even in the jail as a detention officer. ¬†I was too sensitive for most of these jobs and ended up working as a waitress again, which is what I did throughout high school and college and I loved it. ¬†During these years, I read lots of books, met lots of people online that had some of the same beliefs that I do, and muddled through just fine. ¬†The books I read were mostly Neale Donald Walsch, Gary Zukav, James Van Prague, etc. ¬† In January 2013, I left my husband of 18 years and moved into an apartment close to my parents house and the school that my daughters attend. ¬†This was something that I had been trying to do since forever and once I finally paid attention to the constant bombardment from dreams and such, I just took a leap of faith and did it. ¬†Once I did that everything came together just as it needed to. ¬†Everything that I needed was right there. ¬†My current husband, who I have known since I was a small child, but had not seen in 20 yrs., showed back up in my life and kept showing up until I finally got the picture on that one too ¬† I am really hard headed as you have probably figured out by now. It was around this time in 2013 that I saw a post from a friend on FB that lives in Canada, it was the interview with Dolores and Kevin Moore, “Volunteer souls, ET’s and the New Earth”, I believe it was. ¬†I was a little skeptical because of the ET thing but decided to listen to it anyway. ¬†I was like @Lory_Pollina said in the webinar ¬† , it all made perfect sense, I had to go download the book “The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth”. ¬†I read that book in a matter of days and felt every feeling that the clients felt as she described it. ¬†It resonated through me PHYSICALLY! ¬†Not just truth bumps and such like most of the things that I read, that was my way of knowing it was true if I questioned it. ¬†I was thinking, this is what I am supposed to be doing! Unlike Lory, I read more books over time while I was getting acclimated to a new job, Manager of my apartment complex! and then another apartment complex on top of that. ¬†I felt that I had to submit my resume for this job to be sure that the community I live in is safe for my precious little girls. ¬†I know that my daughters are here for something HUGE! ¬†I just don’t know what yet. ¬† ¬†I didn’t take the online course until May of this year, it always seemed like there was never enough time to study the material, while all along I was studying it by reading the other books. In early May, I was telling my mother how I want to take the course, but didn’t know when I would have time and just decided to do it right then, I had a conference coming up and would be in Destin, I would have time at night to watch videos, I said. ¬†The conference was May 23rd. ¬†I had already finished the course and gotten my certificate before I ever left. ¬†I could not stop watching the videos. ¬†3 am I would look at the clock and think “OMG! ¬†I have to get up in 3 hours and go to work!” I think it was 8 days that I finished the course. So, here I am, practicing QHHT just like I am supposed to be doing. ¬†This is HUGE! Oh, and I just quit my job as manager of the apartment complex, so I will have more time now and will be more actively doing sessions and posting in the forum more.